I woke one recent morning to feelings of stress in the body. I went to the cushion and I sat and I tried a few things, but the best of them was trying to find a spaciousness for my energy, and it worked for a few breaths and then disappeared, and then I did it again and it worked for a few breaths and then disappeared. I was very in my head and kept coming into my head and when I'm in my head the energy tends to be very contained and not in a good way. It's just this tight little ball of energy, and the body kind of disappears, and little energy flows even when I try and I can't try for long.
So I was beginning to explore spaciousness, and I realized that this is exactly what I am trying to encourage throughout my life.
A couple of weeks ago I was hitting golf balls with Jerry and I noticed a certain constriction in his body and I told him to put some energy in between his shoulder blades, to draw them back with energy. Doing so allowed him to balance the energy at his front and with the energies in balance his chest opened, became spacious, and once he did so, he hit the ball far better than he had all day. Suddenly, all at once, he found an extra twenty or more yards. How did that happen? It happened because it allowed him to bring spaciousness to the chest, which brought spaciousness to the whole swing.
This is spaciousness in action.
I have been trying to simplify things in my life, and that's the word I've been using, simplify, but I see suddenly that simplify is just part of a path, but spaciousness is the actual destination.
And, doubtless, a path all its own.
Clutter in my world and in my mind. Too many things. I'm seeking a new balance. I'm seeking spaciousness.